make me proud.

today i took a leap of faith.
there are still matters unsettled. well maybe it is settled but my mind just can't stop thinking of worst case scenarios when i did not get the final confirmation details as promised.
why can't people have the cake and eat it at the same time?
why can't i be the kinda person who goes through life without worrying about the 'what-ifs'
laid back. tried that approach for years. nope. still unsuccessful :(

and that would have been the last...

I live to see another day.
who would have thought that of all freak accidents, it could happen in your own room, and less than a metre away from your head?
By that i meant my room's light bulb which decided to just unhook itself and drop 2.5 m to the ground.
Thank god i've cleared most of my room up.
Thank god i was not directly under the lamp when it happened.
Thank god the fin heater was 10cm away from the line of fire.
Thank god my room is carpeted and the bulb didn't break into a gazillion pieces (excuse my exaggeration here please)

I don't usually make it a habit to say so many 'thank gods' in a single post. but i think the recent event warrants it.
had it happened 5 mins earlier, i would have been able to add to my 'stitches-on-face' collection.
and with no-one around, i shudder to think what my next action (or inaction) would have been.

and there i was, earlier today, worrying about whether i could perform for my final year (still blur with dissertation and whatnots) Let's just say, I overthink things at times (well, people say i do it ALL the time haha)

Now i realize anything can happen. I should be grateful that i've been offered the opportunity. It'll be tough...but what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger....
so ... Come February! we shall see whether the 2 week stint makes or breaks me :)