yes!

Question : "Why are you so pessimistic?"

My answer : So that i don't get let down when circumstances don't end up as i expected or hoped.

And after the events that have happened, i've sworn to never keep my level of expectations high again. It's too hard to recover. Instead, when good news come, i get a nice feeling about it. When things aren't expected, they always present themselves...somehow.

Exhilarated. That's what i feel. I've now proven that i'm not as bad as that one person said i was at something. In fact, i'm pretty darn good at it. Far be it for me to boast here, knowing that some of you actually do read my rantings. A few months back, i entered this essay competition. Just for fun...but...i wasn't feeling it. I was down, as this particular lecturer told me a few days before that that MY ENGLISH LEVEL IS NOT AS GOOD AS SHE THOUGHT IT WAS. She even added that I CAN'T WRITE PROPERLY IN ENGLISH. i got shot down. my ego was bruised. first my soul. then my ego. Great. I almost skipped out on the essay competition. Another lecturer however, was so kind that she even gave me permission to be late for the test scheduled for that day so i could attend the competition.
Now when i think back about it, i'm glad i went anyway. I managed to get second place....haha.

The ten of us who went to China were told to write our mini-conclusions on our china experience. I've learnt a lot more than what i put in that a4 sized write-up. I've grown. China was in more ways than one....a breath of fresh air. You'll never guess why.